Snuffed

My skull is pounding,
A mesmerizing fury of anger.
I feel a low rumbling in my throat,
My eyes sunken back into their sockets.
The sinew in my neck tenses,
Pulling its tendons taut.
Inhuman I am in this moment.
Memories of it all before swirl around me,
Fueling my hatred and desire.
A piercing scream of rage tears free,
As I find myself stripped-
Naked,
Cold,
Dead,
Without you.

I could have held you close,
With these strong hands of mine.
If only my mouth had not betrayed
The darkest wish to immolate myself, a failure.
With sizzling words I burned you,
And lit the powder of the bullet
That would lodge itself in my foot.
The key to this engine is broken,
My heart is dead and gone-
Sleeping,
Dreaming,
Waiting,
For someone.